Just another love story!

She wished she could have stayed there and took care of him. It was killing her to leave him like this all alone. He was burning with fever. How bad she wanted to be with him.

Today and forever.

He wasn’t well and she was there to look after him. He asked her to come and in no time she was there. At his home, a million memories came back haunting her. How she was hopelessly in love with him. How she had broken down in his arms a countless times begging for his love. She wished she could turn back time and fix the things that went wrong.

She had hoped that one day he might hold her hand and ask her not to leave but he never did.

It had been a long time since she had known him. They started talking over a social networking app, and before she knew she had fostered feelings for him. Initially he flirted, and the poor lass, didn’t know the difference between genuine attraction and flirting. Courtesy, her small town upbringing! She was soon head over heels in love with him, he was older, mature and wise enough to not fall for her. She tried and cried but in vain. There were times when she went out of her ways to attract his attention and love. He cared but all he could offer her was friendship, and all she craved was love.

At first when she met him, she never knew she would be this crazy for him. But love has strange and cruel ways. She fell in love with a man who was there for her in every possible way but emotionally. Had she known this when she met him first.  There were reasons for his apathy. He had had a tough, sad life. But to me it sounded unfair that a girl who knew nothing about his hard knocks in life back then, should fall for this very guy out of everyone and go to bed every night in tears wishing he was hers. She was desperately craving for his love and affection, she wanted to be her lady. She wanted to be there for her and cook him delicious meals and watch him eat those sumptuously.. ohhh… The way he eats… like a small baby… Even thinking of it brought a smile on her face. One thing that she had discovered about her passionless man was that he loved good food. This amused her in a weird way. And thus, she longed to cook for him.

Yes, she had fallen in love before… She was the kind of girl who fell in love very easily. She was a fool, an innocent young fool.  But this love was very different, after months of trying and ups and downs she had finally given up on him, given up on him in a way that her love for him had turned pure. She had accepted the fact that they were never going to be together, atleast not in this lifetime. She had made peace with the fact that they were different people and had different priorities.

And it was then she stopped expecting and started giving.

She loved him with everything she had. Every bit of her existence was alive for him. They say that once in your lifetime you meet someone who can turn your world upside down. He was the one for him. Her world was never going to be the same again.  She had opened her heart out to him knowing that there was a chance it might get broken one day and she might never experience the love and joy she dreamed of. Being vulnerable to the pain was the only way she knew she could survive.

A part of her heart wanted to stay there and look after this man, who had not allowed her to be a part of his life and future. And a part of her wanted to save herself. Save herself from the miseries that this man had inadvertently brought in her path.

She decided to save herself, picked up her bag, hugged him and moved out of his house and life, determined never to come back again. She had a quiet, peaceful smile on her way back, because today she had cooked for him. No matter for the first and the last time ever. But she had.